Are you blankety, blank, blank- kidding me?

As I sit down to write this evening, it's been one of those days where I have had to really "count my blessings."  I have tried to go back to my last post and count my blessings, but it's been hard today.  Let me walk you through my last two days.

Yesterday I woke up with a migraine at 3:30 in the morning, my throat was raw and my nose was stuffy.  I took some medicine and tried to go back to bed but my head felt as if it was going to pop off.  I called into work at 5:30 in the morning, stayed up so my kids could sleep in a little bit, got them dressed and took them to daycare (because you know the hubby had to sleep in as late as possible and he would be late if he took them).  A mom's job is never done.  I came back home and laid on the couch for a while feeling non human, my hair all over my head, coffee brewing and thinking, am I going to live?  As a wife and a mother I have this overwhelming feeling of guilt if I am at home and not working.  I feel like I have to do something, I can't relax.  Why is that?  I should not feel guilt, but I do.  I managed to get myself off of the couch, fix a cup of coffee and put on a load of clothes, fold two loads that were on the couch and put them away.  Laid back down, got up unloaded and reloaded the dish washer, laid back down.  Posted on facebook for RiOak and made a promotion and watched my likes go up...laid back down, got up swept and did another load of laundry.  Finally I ate around 1:00 and laid back down.  Then I got up and finally made my bed for the day and cleaned our bathroom.  You see how the day went?  I had a sign delivery at 5:00 so I thought I needed to make myself a little presentable, got dressed, sprayed my hair and left to do the delivery.  Stopped by the store and then picked the girls up from daycare.  Came home only to YES you guessed, cook dinner.  Dinner and then painting was it in order.  Hit the hay about 10:00 which is rare for me.  You see as a mom you are NEVER done!  No matter how bad you feel there is ALWAYS laundry and food to be fixed for everyone, I know, I know, ENJOY IT WHY YOU CAN. I feel blessed was not the feeling I was having but yes I know I am , I am blessed, enjoy this....I kept telling myself this.

Back up at 6:30am to start on laundry and the girls woke up to move their mountains at about 6:45.  Okay so I still don't feel the best but I am determined today has to be a more productive day.  I started painting on a sign, then breakfast, then clean up breakfast, then more painting.  I get everyone dressed for the day and hubby heads out to the shop.  Now the oldest is old enough to go out there with him but here I am with a sign to complete and an 18 month old....this is a task in itself.  Little miss Oaklee is into everything and her favorite is toilet paper at the moment.  I put one coat on all my letters and then go to find her.  She is sitting in my bathroom with toilet paper everywhere.  I clean it up, take her out of the bathroom, shut the door, first mess to clean up for the day.
Continue to paint on my sign as my oldest, Riley comes in (only 30 minutes after she went outside) and is hungry...because she didn't feel like eating when we had fixed pancakes for breakfast.  Sooooo up again to fix a little snack.  She loved it so much she wanted more than what I had fixed the first time, sooooo you guessed it, up again to fix more.  I told her to go and play and then I put Oaklee down for her nap.  Hubby is still out in the barn....although I am so thankful he is a hard worker,  there are times like this that I think hmmmm it would be so nice to be the man in this relationship.  I mean think about it, he left out of the house at 10:00 in the morning and has done nothing with the girls except change one diaper and put plates on the table for breakfast.  Okay Ashley don't be bitter, don't be bitter, I repeat don't be bitter.  I go back to painting for the 2nd coat of paint on my wording.  Get up unload the dish washer and reload...dishes are never done either!  Go back to the sign for the third coat then pick up the house a little.  By now it's about noon and Oaklee is back up.  Even after I have picked up the house, there are still toys scattered.  I asked Riley to pick up and she asked if she did, could we put a puzzle together...sure!  During this time, I hear the 10 syllable word, "Mooooommmmmm,"  I go to find Riley and she has dropped my eye shadow and tried to clean it up, my grout is now blue in our master bathroom...just another mess, Mess 2 cleaned up for the day.  By this point I feel like we all need some fresh air and it is 1:00.  I get the girls bundled up and we go out to the barn to find hubby cutting on boards...but what do I see only three things...WHAT????  He explains he has taken a whole stack of pallets apart as well.  Ohhh I said, just wondering as I have painted and taken care of the girls for the last three hours and still have to finish the sign and go to the store for our family Christmas tomorrow.  He just looks at me with that blank look that every husband has and goes back to cutting wood.  I leave with the girls and head back up to the house.  As Riley stomps through every single mud puddle she can find....yep a mess... I just let her do it because she thought it was a blast, I will just clean it up, what's another mess at this point? Hubby comes in shortly and opens up the puzzle for only ME to do with Riley.  I lay down on the floor and put together a floor puzzle while he relaxes on the couch and plays on his phone,,,,don't be bitter Ashley, don't be bitter...lol  Floor puzzle was complete and gorgeous I might add.  I then go back to painting.  Sign completed, or so I thought.
Riley has made 1,001 request and had at least 1 million questions to be answered today...at one point Riley even tells my hubby, moms can do everything!  I poured myself another cup of coffee and cheers it to myself!  Hubby goes back out to the barn.  No problem...I got it!!  My mom and dad come by for a little while to see the girls.  My mom says, "What happened to Oaklee's face?"  I said "Well that doesn't sound good and I have no idea."  My mom brings Oaklee down and she has blue marker all over her face....great, just another mess! Mess three (as I made riley take her boots off and we didn't have a mess, only if your counting).
I took my sign out to rough it up, put stain on it and a protective coat.  Hubby comes in and as Oaklee is fussing he scoops her up and takes her for up for another nap.  My mom and I ran to the grocery store.  He stays inside to hold the fort down!  Sure why not at this point, one kid is out at the barn with the horses and the other is taking a nap...just relax Clint, just relax buddy.  I came back from the store and we put away the groceries.  I ask for him to get me a pallet sign so I can start on it tonight, so he does do that for me.
Mom and dad sit down to play a game with Riley and I go to get my sign to take a picture and post it...no sooner did I post it a fan messages me and told me a word was misspelled....oh no!!!  Sure enough I look over and there it was the dreaded misspelled word!  This does happen, not often thank goodness, why didn't I catch that I have only painted that word 4 times today....ahhhhh.  Mommy is about to go nuts at this point.  I am having  a very difficult time finding positive right now as I can only focus on how much time it is going to take me to fix it.  My mom and dad leave and Riley wants me to sit down to play her game with her....dinner is cooking on the stove, Oaklee is screaming up stair...Hold on Riley, I will here in a minute.  "Mom will you play with me."  "Hold on Ri, I will here in a minute."  "Hey mom will you play with me..."  (Breathe Ashley, don't yell, just breathe) with a big breath and exhale, "Riley I told you I would play, let me get Oaklee's diaper changed, stir the taco meat AND then yes I will play.
Three games played and back to dinner I go....to only hear as I am putting the enchiladas together, the 10 syllable word, "Moooommmmmmmmm"  "Yes Riley,"  "I need you."  I leave the kitchen and asked where she was at, "I'm in the bathroom."  I think to myself, this is not going to be good as we have already cleaned up three messes in here already....I walk around the corner and there is the fourth BIG mess of the day.  There stood my 5 year old with poop on her hand, on my wall and all down her leg.  She has this look of panic on her face.  Breathe Ashley, Breathe.  "Riley what happened and why is there poop all over my wall?"  She said, I didn't do it.  "Oh really did the poop just jump from your butt?" I asked in the most calm mommy voice I had at the moment.  This is where the blankety, blank, blank comes in I am saying all kinds of things in my head right now!!  But trying to be patient.  I told her it was an accident but next time it happened to please call me before it got to this point....mess 4 cleaned up...back to dinner (of course after thoroughly cleaning my hands and I told her to go and wash hers after I had already wiped her down) It is a miracle at this point I haven't burnt dinner.  I am finishing dinner and she comes down with her big brown eyes and huge smile and says, "I washed my hands here smell them."  I couldn't hold it in at this point, "Riley I am not going to smell your hands after you just had poop all over them, I am cooking dinner."  She gets tears in her eyes and said,  "I washed them like you told me to."  I gently explained I appreciated her listening, there was no need to cry, I was not being mean but I am not smelling her hand"  Is this too harsh?  I just couldn't do it!  At this point Oaklee is hungry and is pulling my shirt everywhere I am sure I looked like a hula dancer gone bad by the way she was pulling me back and forth, back and forth at the stove.  She is whining, I HATE whining.  I get her some cheese for a snack, she still is whining.  At this point I am whinny too!  Clint FINALLY comes in and has two pallet boards.  I look at him and say, "Mommy is about done for the day."  I think he knew, as he went in and got plates out and checked on the dinner.  He pours me a glass of wine and I just sit on the couch.  We all ate dinner and now here I am. 

I know every woman has a day, or maybe you feel everyday is like this for you.  I wrote this to hopefully let you know, YOU ARE NOT A LONE IN FEELING LIKE YOU COULD JUST GO BLANKETY BLANK, BLANK ON ANYONE WHO MIGHT CROSS YOUR PATH ON ANY CERTAIN DAYS! 
I was very proud of myself as I have only raised my voice one time today!  My glass of wine is completed a fresh cup of coffee is in order and I think I have fixed the sign!!  Getting ready to post here in a little bit.

Hope you have had a little better day than mine but if not, I feel for you.  Just take a breath and drowned out all the noise for at least 10 minutes!! 
It has been just another day at RiOak!

Here is super easy Recipe for the Enchiladas I made tonight-Great for us busy mom's who have to clean up poop right in the middle of cooking, this recipe is bomb proof I tell ya!!

2 lbs of hamburger
1 package of taco seasoning
1 block of cream cheese
2 cans of enchilada sauce
1 bag of sharp cheddar cheese
6 large tortilla shells

Cook hamburger until complete, sprinkle with taco seasoning and then drain.
Mix enchilada mix with cream cheese, pour into cooked hamburger

In 9 x13 pan-Spray with non stick spray then you are going to layer
Rip up your tortilla shells (3 of them) in the bottom, put layer of meat and sauce mix, then layer with 1/2 bag of cheese, Repeat again.
Bake in oven at 350 for approximately 20 minutes or until cheese is completely melted

I bought some new salsa (lime and garlic...very good), put that on top, with refried beans and sour cream.

You could make this more diet friendly by using ground turkey, low fat cream cheese and sour cream and 1/2 bag of fat free cheese.

Hopefully I will be better tomorrow counting my blessings, but for today I just say....Blankety, Blank Blank and goodnight!